“You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail….
I sang the lyrics, standing on the altar during worship service. The words were deep and profound, filling my mind with great possibilities.
“….When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine”
Oh, how my spirit was filled with receiving that revelation: For I am YOURS! And you are MINE! I had lived my entire life looking for this, and even the “Christ & Church” experience I had, failed. I came to realize that no human could give me that, only my Lord and Savior could.
“…….Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now”
It was comforting to know that God has never failed me, even in the midst of what looked like a crisis. The love that he has for me transcends all things. He wouldn’t overlook me or forget me. The song was building my faith in a way that I had never conceived.
The chorus was the repetition of a promise that I still had yet to truly embrace. I came to understand my ability to focus was paramount in this season that was coming. I came to understand that the ocean was surely going to rise, but not all trouble was an indication that I was doing anything wrong. The fiery darts were coming, but my soul could be at peace, no matter what.
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior..“
Oh, my!!! I had no clue of the magnitude of what I was praying. Trust without borders?? It was easy to say, “I trust you to no end.” When I was tested in this, I looked around and thought, “Wait a minute!” My eyes showed me one thing, and it didn’t look good at all to my human mind. My inclination was to do it my way because I knew what my plan was. But then I realized the very lyrics I sung and believed months prior: “You’ve never failed, and you won’t start now…” Ok. Now to get my bearings together and walk this thing out:
Wherever he would lead and call me.
No matter how it looked.
No matter how it felt.
As I looked around and saw that it was certainly deeper than my feet could ever wander, I had rest in knowing that in faith, and in his presence, I would be ok, no matter what.
The quicker I let go and stopped doing things in my own strength and power, the quicker I was able to receive what he had for me. The “Oceans” season is about learning to abide in him. It is my prayer that you will prayerfully give up your plans and agenda so that he can do the same for you. 🙂